BEAUTIFUL DONE

seiring laungan merdeka, maka merdeka la aku.. ayat jenis ape nih? sayang ah! entry ni lewat sehari. tp xpe.. spirit merdeka tetap ade. fuh~ rse cam baru raye.. kah2..gle la klo camni. bajet spm lagi lama nak compare ngn smu. smu is fine insyaALLAH. lps paper demi paper.. rase sayang gak klo x dpt full.. lepas bia gi lepas la.. syuh3~!!!! aku hanya mampu berdoa…

berlalu la suda smu
sebulan hazaf tido
bila abes kita rayakan
dengan qadha blk tido

bdk lua balek umah
bdk sini motem skoloh
jiwa dan raga keriangan
mugo toksoh ngapa doh

zero yang membelenggu aku sebab smu dah tade.. smu jugak merangkap kakah last aku ngapa.. sedeyh gak.. tp tu la.. happy. there’s lotsa things right ahead. so… dunno. hahah~ aku benci la bende mengkonfiuskan nih.bleh wat aku pikir pikir banyak kali. neuron otak tercair dgn automatically nye menjadikan aku seorang yang berfikir..  hmm stakat tu dlu kenyataan perasaan. assalamualaikum

STILL.. sober to answer the exam coming around the corner. bkn nak blagak pandai. as the matter of fact, this self can’t take no more. its like the whole year, i’ve been thinking about this… so with full of hope, insya’Allah we can do it well~ still not promising any good result.. 6A1c seems so far to achieve for me **gasp.. i’ll FIGHT and defend till the last breath.. as usual, burn the midnight oil is a tradition of us [pal of mine] but at this time, its me left!!! still obey to the old style. insya’Allah i can memories all madah well.. sbb trial hr tu at least.. ade la jugak yg ingat. so just a playback needed!!! I’LL FIGHT AND DEFEND

knape aku malas? persoalan yg tak terjawap since in primary school lg. malas have no cure bak kate cikgu aku.. but we still have few ways to prevent ‘em..
frankly speaking, at this while, ak cm da tak rse pape dh. rse tkot pn takde.. rse nk keep on struggle pn takde..

even stationary pun tergendala.. not so well.. its only a pen left.. my beloved pilot the shaker is lost!!! damn me for not keepin an eye on my own pencil case.. **fault is mine. i’ve buy it twice only for this 2007. am i buying the other one for the replacement of it lost??? the answer is NO. pencil is everything to me. once it lost, i find so difficult to use the new one.. feelin so weird and shiver. the old one is everything to me.. now it’s already LOST………………
pen.. think there’s few ink left.. and it’s enough for this smu.. ruler? NO,i’m just using the i/c.. and where the hell my i/c is??? true story u need to know is,
MY PENCIL CASE,
MY BELOVED PENCIL CASE,
IS MISSING!
IS LOST!!!

i don’t want to trouble my mom for buying me all of the stuff back..
because it’s all happen within my fault. so i treat myself a great big deal by using what i already have at home.. and this will be a great lesson for me..

ITS MY DREAM PHONE..

it’s hell expensive.. but i’m sure to get one and one day IT WILL BE MINE!!!!!.. one day.. perhaps this month or next month OR NEXT YEAR..whenever i don’t care..as long as i be able to get it  **I’M STILL HOPING..
i think it is fair for me because.. all of this life.. i’ve only change my phone for only twice since i use it for approximately 4 years.. mom didn’t said anything to me neither promising me to buy it.. but i know to get one.. i must struggle and get an excellent result..not just good but excellent..then i’ll get the permission to buy ot..huhuh [.... i never get anything for free..]

PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT ONE!!!!!
insya’ALLAH

as the day past by, i’m still hanging around with those compact schedule.. huhu.. bRaYeRr.. style
tak exam je aku.. wondering kwn2 yg lain mcm mane.. seumur hidup aku
la, ni la kali pertama ak exam lps raya.. so sick.. kinda.. tapi raya
kali ni so best la.. if nak compare ngan tahun2 yg dh lepas. mmg
highlighted taun nih! bukan sbb duit raya yang meningkat naik, bukan
jugak sbb enjoy LOADS OF FIREWORK. tapi sebab semangat kekeluargaan
yang terzahir.. raya tahun ni.. mmg meriah tp rase kejap je.. sYaWaL 1st, 2nd n 3rd..
the rest.. xrse pape dah..salu raya approximately one month.. ak pon
tatau.. seems dah jadi tradition kot. or awal2 raye tu masing2 ade
keje. so postpone masa utk ziarah menziarahi.. papepon.. raye tetap best

especially sYaWaL ketiga.. raya habis-habisan!! mecon bape kotak abes. macam2 ade..yang paling gile skali ‘crazy robot’ [dah name pon crazy...].. nak teklua segala zarah dalam telinga aku..aku pon hilang idea la mane kazen-kazen aku dapat mecon yang punyela memeriahkan nih.. ade satu firework tu.. chinese punye.. [yang guna masa new year ke ape..terberai kat langit!!!] yang tu lagi dasatttt! siap kene main 25 meter dari kawasan orang lagi.. so, kitorang amik tempat baik punya!!! iaitu padang lembu meragut rumput [malam-malam lembu masok kandang]..haha, mmg besh.. taun lepas, sekadar mercun kecik2.. bunyi cam kentot.. huh~ nak raya pon tak best.. tapi aku pelik jugak.. boleh kata tanpa henti la bunyi mercun. setiap area bebunyi!! [bukan family aku je la..] siap lawan-lawan lagi area ni dengan area tu..
tapi, apsal takde ……………………………………………………………..
haha~~~

skang dah masok sYaWal fifth! cepatnye masa berlalu.. sedar dalam tak sedar tinggal lagi 4 hari left untuk aku SMU!!!!!.. mmg beraya ‘terlebih’ sakan.. and ni lah jadi~ anyhow, terasa diriku tidak menjanjikan yang terbaik bagi exam kali nih.. berpandukan usaha yang ‘chipsmore’ dan kesungguhan yang seiring laluan angin.. rasa mcm jauh untuk aku gapai kecemerlangan itu.. huhu! in mind, success need sacrifice! i’ve no doubt toward it.. hell or high water, by hook or crook, insyaAllah dengan usaha yang ala kadar ni, aku akan try try n try.. nampak gaya, next week is the moment of truth! moment of torturing and depressed. hukuman yang adil bagi sape2 yang selalu ready last minute..hahaha~

anggapan yang ternyata salah nak mampos yakni PMRU same macam SMU.. actually i’ve remind this thousand times in myself…sluggish o~ me.. PMRU  base kepada SMU.. SMU plak puncak segala galanya.. confident utk PMRU tak cukop untuk have a war with SMU.. because SMU lagi banyak elemen compare dengan PMRU.. so kalo aku buat style last minute [like I'm doing just now plus RIGHT NOW!!]….  I’ll be OFF man! mungkin aku berjaya melepasi PMRU.. alhamdulillah with flying colours.. tapi untuk SMU.. aku tak rasa pape….. so, aku tak berani nak promising any good to myself. insyaAllah, aku amal apa aku belajar.. aku paham.. aku mengerti.. aku ingat sampai mati.. tapi for this exam..,doakan aku!!! ya ALLAH.. jadikanla aku tergolong dalam kalangan mereka2 yang rajin..ameen.

wondering apsal le pekse akhe taun ade~ sengal tol. guessin, abes smu, abes a sume utk taun ni.. kah3.sian ak.. 2 days afta smu xm academic lak. what will the marks look like? is it full of B’s or E’s??? ni cm torture je..ngeh3 [ak yg malas snanye..no objection, but a confession]..

so, raye approximately 2 wks.. [ak mls terok bab mengire ngire ni ...] smggu pas raye smu le..ak da tak kesa la..ape nk jd, jd la..cut it out!! o_0 waa, ini bukan putus asa, bukan jua menyerah kalah, namun, cume ckp je..tade maknenyee..huhhh~
lg 4 hr.. [anggaran awal..] the sis and the bro will cum back.. so, dgn sgl hormatnye snang la aku nk kemane mane.. coz they surely can drive me all way long!! uhux =D ..nice rily nice! no worry, there’s no tribulation for ‘em.

salu… rutin tahunan ak..shari sblm raye tu ak akan melilau-lilau ngn hana carik brg n stuffs laaa [raye punye pasai !!!]  tp taun ni theres lot of change.. [tp klo hana on, aku ok je..kah3...] ade satu bnde ak lom cukop ag..kuota lom cukop utk raye.. mecon!!! komponen penting braye.. x kesa a lps raye pekse ke..tp raye tetap raye..huh,skang pon dh bunyik sne sini.. on the way nk gi tarawih pon ade..tp org tua kate, "bdk2.. cmtu le..".. tp aku heran,… aku bdk gk.. tp kinda intelligent sket kot..hahahaha..[ignore dis..]

phew~ speechless.. looks like its the end of ramadhan. still doin nothing for the catastrophe of smu.. wuhuhu… [act, am the one who's in trouble du'uh~] targeting??
still dim.. not so endeavour towards it.. insyaAllah.. wif the time left. i’ll try my best.
sluggish lil me!!!

12.32 a.m
1st 0ct [6 hr lg b'day dak abbas, yakni adk aku]
sincerely : ku-diatas-awan-tak-kaba-lg-nk-pekso-kene-napa-tawa-baru-kaba

sumtimes i try very hard to hide the changes,
dat happen to my feeling,
but then, i think bout it and say,
"hey!! why hide it from the real truth!"
so i tell my friend..
a friend called.. x igt.kakakaak

all the probs hav been settled.. honesty INDEED is the best policy, tp tak sume bende kne honest.. kdg2 honesty bley gak wat saket hati org.. so, think before u act!!
in life, tak sume org mesti ske ngn kte.. sbb mnusia mmg cmtu. "xpnah rse cukop".
kte plak.. as a servant yg humble lg hina, berslalulah self critism..because we ‘all noe dat NOBODY’S PERFECT! on da way to perfect maybe bleh…. so, keep on struggle towards it..jaga persepsi kte tehadap org… jgn le melulu nak su’zon [sangke burok]..kalo kte tak ske seswatu bende tu, jgn buat aa kat org!!! so, org takkan buat kt kte. cam bibik ak ckp.. hukum karma.. haha..kinda reflection ats wut we’ve done..cm balasan gitu!

skadar secebis peringatan buat diri yg salu lupe.. xde point accusin finger kt sesape.