BEAUTIFUL DONE

JIWA KACAU..
i shud be happy and glad since pkr ini dianggap selesai.
ya tanx to amna.. [ i wudn't be able to do it without her help ]
but why? why in the world shud i think nonsense.
can i just get rid of it?
and take me far far away from dis?
its not like i want to run away from dis kind of mess.
coz i know it won’t help~
but, how?
what shud i do? tell me.
i can’t even think of it!
it give me such a terrible headache!

if could,
i just want to be back..
to the good old days.
like last year maybe.
nothing much to think about. [eventhough wif so many things to remember ]
arghh!
but dis year is differ!
differ than other years i’ve live!
wah, such a new life.
sweet seventeen maybe..

the more i think - the more i stress.
the more i forget - the more i remember.
it keep running on my mind..
at the end,
it’ll stay the same!
so it such a dirt if i get myself think of it.
such a small matter it is actually.
i’ve no idea why it cud bother me DIS much.

afraid of losing!
it always happen in our life
u can’t deny ur own feeling
u can’t lie to urself
no matter how hard u try
it’ll result…
USELESS
cum’on. gimme a break
now i feel whole lot better
haha~

life, is like a rainbow
wif so many colours on it
colours related to things dat happen in our dailylife
all things dat happen have its own meaning
only ALLAH know
be glad of what you live

life,
is just like wht justin have sang [haha xley bla ayat]
what goes around, comes around
sometimes you’re up high above the sky..
but sometimes you can be low down to the earth

LIFE
u can’t learn how to live by read tons of books
but u can learn it..
from what u’ve go through
it’s life..
be glad of what u have
before u lose it
[appreciatte 'em before its too late]

don’t u ever wish
u were someone else
because
u’re meant to be
the way u are
exactly

phew act, got nothing much to say. just jot in such a technobabble thing make me feel better. hehe. ak pn tak phm ar. kdg2 ak ske pikir bnda yg tak ptt lgsg aku pikir [ smpai kwn ak suh ak ketok kpale takyah pikir ] maybe aku ni tertakhluk dlm kalangan yg hobinye berfikir. aku pikir good things jerrr. no misjudge!
[ take that! ].  last, selamat berpuasa kpd semua muslimin jua muslimat. esp for SPM candidate. beli2 la baju raye.. walaupn anda akan enjoy raya yg tak berapa nk enjoy! strive hard! live life! maaf zahir batin. =)

 -this pictha rily bring me back to memoryland, so sweet! -

special thanks to khusyaliey [ liyana sanusi ], aku aimi mode [ aimi yusoff ] and always han nyu yoo [ nuyu ] for help me out today

"apsal mu salu bkk sejarah je.. x boring ke?" at last kua jugak suare ak
( act ak tetekan tgk bdk ni asyik bukak kitab sejarah je. ak sket pn xbce lg.kih3 )
"people who don’t learn the past are condemned to repeat it"
dgn padat & ringkas de jwp blk soalan ak.

haha~ ni la dialog femas dlm unit ak. time ak busy study bnda lain ( except sejarah ). dia? stay dgn buku sejarah je. aku mmg salute spring la kat dia nih. bleh keep it up.( baca2 pn, buku latihan kt tangan ) insyaAllah A1 utk SEJARAH utk dia.. tetibe tingat kat bdk nih. ( school hols has reach it ‘end’ ) rsa rindu membuak buak kt asama.~ ( woah. kenyataan palsu aku ) trial pn nk dekat gile dah ni.

but ME. staying here. in the middle of no where. ak tatau cane nak ckp. tp.. ak rasa ak blom kuat utk trial. ( kalo dlm perang, sure aku the 1st martyr punye lah ).

bru hbs baca sejarah. try buat exactly mcm amirah buat
( amirah :: one of my roomate :her ambition is to be a police.insyaAllah. ASP! )

nothing but worst. sket2 ade la masok dlm otak aku. sejarah to be compared with math/ addmath. i rather tortured by addmath.
( eventhou by doin the exercise, it make my head shiver in terror ).
but is dis how it supposed to be? sejarah tetap menjadi sejarah. walaupn sekerap mana aku condemn SEJARAH ) BOSAN, SEJARAH BOSAN!! bukankah aku wajib skor A1 utk sejarah. tu pon if i rily insist to get the best opportunity right ahead . so STOP think ridiculous about SEJARAH. try to make it..

BESTNYA!!!

( skali lagi fakta menipu )

tp kdg2 kita perlu tipu diri kita sendiri.. lama2, we will get use to it. don’t misjudge! utk study, anda boleh terapkan method ini. for else? hell yea. if u nod at it. u really have a big problem. ( shud go to any pcychiatrist )

esok jumaat dah. then sabtu. ahad skola. ( don’t act like u forget it ) lusa maybe anas will be home and I will be gone. aisyah plak balek merdeka day kot. maka adalah baiknya aku kirim ape2 aku nak. ( kih3.. not think of it yet.. xpe. still have much time ) esok nasib baik la cuti dari segala makneka~ ESOK will be no class. none!!! best gile. tapi, ak janji dah ngn aiza utk pas cd graphic sweater class aku. so esok aku still ade bnda kna buat!. wah3… janji tetap janji. will neva broke it unless if i die of course..

urr.. actually i’ve got sumthing to jot in, tp ak hilang idea dah. nothing more than happy things. no words can describe. i’m happy, YES~!  but at the same time, i cudnt lie to myself by having dis little tiny of sebe salah thing.. huu~ have try to get rid of it. but the more i try to forget.. the more i remember. it’s so hard to forget those. it make me sick. it so hard when it comes to people. i dont want to break any heart, pardon me.. but in this matter, i just have to. i didnt know which step shud i take.. and honestly i’ve no guts to make a first move. so lets take it easy ( i guess LAH ) , lets just forget it and live a happy life. try to make it simple. maybe this is the best end up. because, it wont hurt anybody. and i will have mind-free. nuyu salu marah aku kes aku salu negative dlm ape2 aku buat. haha! thanks for your technobabble nuyu.
it helps me much.

~better in time~

thanks for mr. ojisama for the perfect gift! appreciatte it.

EVERY WASTED DAY, GOT A WASTED CHANCES

nothing in dis world can describe how i feel..it’s undescribable.and seems to remain unknown. only Allah know. perhaps nuyu also [i've told her. uhux as she's my personal advisor.ha3] so the dilema turn out to b lyke dis —> is dis the right choice? cpt gle buat keputusan. approx within 3 days. i simply list down all of the advantages n disadvantages, of leaving dis house,[for the very 1st time] dis room, dis notebook, dis t.v, dis minicompo!!! dis dis.. dis dat! huh, all of my best damn things! goodbye. its time for S-A-C-R-I-F-I-C-E.

right!i’m gonna say goodbye house. be cool b’coz it’s only for a while. 2 month left before SPM. so for the time being, let’s rawking. i’ve got a nice place to stay. with cosy fren to hang out with. insyaAllah.. mak ckp, skang msa utk pecut.. gyle2.. [need for speed?] hahha. she’s right. ak rse ak tade wt pape pn lg.study tu ade sket2. tp ak tatau sejauh mna ak dh cover. silibus2 f4.. f5.. discussion bleh buat kte igt 70%. so credit for stay away.plus.all i need is better discipline! better time management. another credit for decision i’ve decide.

sejauh mna ak mampu bertahan? living w/o bibik sanah a.k.a kak sanah. [MERCY~ D.I.Y!!] i leave myself to decide. tah pape le kalo ddk kejap je. huh~ nk msk ramadhan dh ni. ak plak jauh dr rumah. kdg2 terpikir gk psl tuh. tp xpe. demi cita-citaku.. huhu~ klo ak xbuat cani, ak rsa.. mcm.. ak tak amik ape2 inisiatif pn.

"berhijrah untuk menjadi lebih baik". quote utk aku. AND I’M SURE CAN.

kta akn peroleh apa yg setimpal dgn usaha kita. Allah maha adil. stp kesusahan pasti dibalas dgn kesenangan kelak. ameen. ak yakin itu! so do pray for me pal.

mak,dedek,amna,abas are my bestest gift.
nuyu,wa are my lock diary
we will never say bye bye.